Insomnia!!!

Wings of the fan are looping slowly
Morrison’s voice is deep and transfixing
Laying there, I could really see
Beyond the walls, beyond this life, even beyond me
Gradually plunging into the muddy pool of thoughts
Could make out each strum on the guitar, every tick on the clock
That’s when the train of thoughts whistled and shunted
Always mobile on the eternal track, appending each moment without an aim
As usual, the endeavor to capture and control its motion, went in vain
Before I know, flashbacks and memories occupied me
The moments I laughed and the jiffies I cried
The maternal caress and the sound sleep, when I was a child
How I slept in that embrace… on her lap…
And now I am staying awake, trying to fill the gaps

Myriad nights are washed away to figure it out
But even an ounce of relief… could not be found
Is it the fear of future or pain from the past ?...Can’t really say
As faith is not the virtue I posses, Can’t even pray
May be the lost love or the dreaded experiences of my life…
But, the pills , the sessions, the complete help is futile
Can be my tireless mind, that refuses to rest
I keep on contemplating the reasons…preeminent being in quest

As I am clutched by my reasons and my thoughts
The sky is painted orange, on the horizon sun floats
I get off my bed to start another routine
Following the alive gleam, waiting for the permanent sleep
Sleep without the wakeup call, the darkness without light
Where the void starts and nobody knows when it ends
Insomnia...as they say…is a detrimental trait
And “Why”…is what keeps me awake...


The wait is on….