L.O.V.E

The mind… plays the game
Poor heart… takes the blame
It pumps your blood
And keeps you alive
But for your silly hormones
It is the victim and bears the knife

The fantasies of poets and philosophers came alive
Inside the Love matrix…rationality strives
The Common, bloody, sense took a back seat
Gaffes, from ages, love-birds did repeat
To superfluously complicate the rather simplicity of being
You have the whimsical idea of LOVE, to cling

“Oh! I cannot live without you”
“My Life would be incomplete without you”
Pray, have a good thought before you are trapped
In the brutal clutches of emotional conditioning
Comrade, it is never about the connection and commitment
It is merely the brain-controlled-body-harmonizing

Though, amidst the strong socio-emotional grasp of L.O.V.E
Under the spell of TV-Movies-Music, the chances are few
But, I hope, someday you will be able to see…
Beyond this Milieu…
When the bright light of lucidity shines on you !!!

Hakuna Matata
GK

VOID !!!

That’s where it began
That’s where it will end
Then why do I strive?
Twist and tangle and bend?

Purpose, reason and path are petty
When it’s going to culminate in VOID
Nothingness in Life or Life in Nothingness
Thoughts and morals then, are just decoys

Beyond the gasp of survival
Into the heavens of death
Lies the truth of Life
Rational, undisputed and clear

Chasms and the pinnacles, then
Seem unworthy of my attention
Beyond the human emo-rationale
awaits the ultimate realization !!!


Hakuna Matata
GK

The Day I Died !!!

The day I died
I looked back and cried
For the miseries I lived
And the hardships I faced
Cried…for the people I hurt
For times when my Self was disgraced

The day I died
I looked back and smiled
For the love I received
And the ignorance I deceived
Smiled…for the moments I revered
And the stupid nightmares I feared

The day I died
I looked back and laughed
For the blunders I committed
And the baloney I vomited
Laughed… at myself and on others
Even for my foes , so for my brothers

The day I died
I did nothing but pulled the trigger
Brought the curtains down, for this circus
Without regrets…Happily with a smile
Why?... people anyways are going to derive
Life was a laboratory, with experiments of all kind
It was time to perform the ultimate...I could find.

Hakuna Matata

I

Love :

Don’t believe it so don’t feel it
Emotions may cloud the mind but desires are bodily
Reasoned the inter dependence of sapiens
The communion is plain biology not heavenly

Friendship :

Projections and Expectations are bookish
Purity seldom exist when the acts are selfish
Eternity of friendship is nothing but a whim
Time changes and people follow the same

Family :

Affection since birth is instinctive
Reciprocating the emotions and care
Sincere duty is expected
Will stand by……..through glee and despair

Life :

Roller coaster ride with ups and downs
Sailing my way through…smooth water and storms
On my way to the culmination of my existence
Defying the rules and the predefined norms


Love, Friendship and Family are nothing
But merely the blocks of Life
Everything is for ME, With ME and By ME
Without ME, they cease to exist
I am the source….and I am the void
I is nothing…….yet I am everything
From the opening of the eyes…….till they close
The ride continues…..on the Highway… I Chose !!!

GEN X

Lost in the nihilistic chaos
We are the children of domestic violence
Bleak future and heavy past upon us
We are dancing in numbing silence

Revolution and rage raked inside
Battle for survival, never going to culminate
Euphoria is the new home we live in
Away from reality, castles in air, we create

Toxic blend of selfish righteousness
Rationality being lost in the course of mechanization
Thoughts are fuzzy, distorted and wretched
Television and technology is what we make of education

LSD and grass is the new appetite
With them, with us, with all...is the fight
Freedom, we cannot define but we seek
Inside, the prejudiced captive self cries…

Religion and god, the influence is lost
Identity crisis, not to be blamed on West
World, forced upon us, is of no cost
Violence, blood, rock and roll… sanity, at its best

Striving to stay afoot, when life is falling apart
Humanly traits are depleting slowly
Don’t know when it will end, cannot make out the start
Dwelled in the brute instincts of wilderness and sex
We are the children of today…..We are GEN X

Peace

My Country Today!!!

Shinning or dimming, it’s hard to tell
But, people, certainly it’s time to ring the bell
In wake of the events all around
Helpless and confused, My country is found

Where a fifth grade dropout decides
Fates and careers of doctorates and Phds
Corruption has crippled all the four legs
Scuffle over that trembling chair is politics
Democracy is reduced to vote banks and regionalist bias
Pained and complaining is My Country Today

Naxalism and terrorism are the regular terms, we see
Where bomb blasts and bloodbaths have lost their blow
Centre blaming the state and opposition blaming the centre
Welcome, people, to this circus, it’s the new reality show
Talks and conferences and statements are very well composed
Surprised and shocked is My Country Today

Women, as per the “Culture”, signifies the goddess for us
Where, the Sainiks, manhandling our women, to save the “Culture”
Fundamental freedoms of an Indian are fuzzy
Is it just pieces of paper with signatures, we call constitution ?
We, killing each other for religion – caste – community, are so busy
Don’t even realize, what good is my religion when no humans are left to pray
Hurt and bleeding is My Country Today

I blame you and you blame somebody, somebody to next and we live happily
Corruption, Population, Media, Politics, Terrorism etc…and they are numerous
We, learn to blame and complain, than to work and take up responsibility
It has always been easy to find an excuse than to strive for a solution
Its sarcastic to say India, Our country, when we can’t even stand for the anthem
As they say, even a bee’s movement is significant in earth’s motion
A simplest of action could make the difference
Education and awareness among the countrymen can show us the way
People, Hopeful and Expecting is My Country Today


Amen.

Insomnia!!!

Wings of the fan are looping slowly
Morrison’s voice is deep and transfixing
Laying there, I could really see
Beyond the walls, beyond this life, even beyond me
Gradually plunging into the muddy pool of thoughts
Could make out each strum on the guitar, every tick on the clock
That’s when the train of thoughts whistled and shunted
Always mobile on the eternal track, appending each moment without an aim
As usual, the endeavor to capture and control its motion, went in vain
Before I know, flashbacks and memories occupied me
The moments I laughed and the jiffies I cried
The maternal caress and the sound sleep, when I was a child
How I slept in that embrace… on her lap…
And now I am staying awake, trying to fill the gaps

Myriad nights are washed away to figure it out
But even an ounce of relief… could not be found
Is it the fear of future or pain from the past ?...Can’t really say
As faith is not the virtue I posses, Can’t even pray
May be the lost love or the dreaded experiences of my life…
But, the pills , the sessions, the complete help is futile
Can be my tireless mind, that refuses to rest
I keep on contemplating the reasons…preeminent being in quest

As I am clutched by my reasons and my thoughts
The sky is painted orange, on the horizon sun floats
I get off my bed to start another routine
Following the alive gleam, waiting for the permanent sleep
Sleep without the wakeup call, the darkness without light
Where the void starts and nobody knows when it ends
Insomnia...as they say…is a detrimental trait
And “Why”…is what keeps me awake...


The wait is on….

Kaash - If Only

The sun was bright in the clear blue sky
The breeze was mild and sweet
The twinkle in her eyes, the smile on her lips
Weehoooo !….my heart skyrocketed and skipped some beats
Her face is glowing and everything else is bleak
Mildly, I am loosing the focus and she is moving away
There’s so much to express but I did not say
And now I look back to my lost love… I only regret
Kaash – I had told her
Coz no matter how many you will have, First Love is never to forget


The dreadful night and the buzzing ambulance
My sight is fuzzy, could not control the tears
He held my hand and spoke in the trembling tone
“Son, You have been good and I want you to stay the same.
Take care of your mother, When I am gone “
That’s when I realized , there’s nothing worse than helplessness
I know, some things in life we can never control
Kaash – I had told him
That I owe not only my life to him, but also my soul


The music is growing with every moment, it’s farewell time
Laughter, dancing and the shouts, we are on cloud 9
Some went to business and some to the job
College used to be our world someday, now it’s the globe
From India to US of A , among the continents, we are scattered
“Hi” and “Wass Up?” is now what we came down to
“FB” and “Orkut” took the important places in our lives, things that mattered
Missing the “Sunday’s cricket”, “straying around the girl’s house” and “group discussions ”
Kaash – I had told them
Dudes! No matter where we are, we are Friends forever. No confusion


Crux :
Express - When you can coz Life won’t give you a second chance .
C’est la vie.

August of 47!!!

When the earth cried and the sky blazed
Anger engulfed the nights and days
Villages are deserted and streets are bloody red
Not just the body, the souls are dead
Shallow mourning of the helpless infants
Crying over parents’ corpse, curbed by the religious chants
Bleak is the difference between a brute and a human
So is my country, looking at August of 47.

Humanity is going through this ruthless test
As we walk past the time, when all Indians were abreast
Fighting for a unified cause, the freedom of the nation
Enemy is not outside but lies within, mere self realization

“But what about the kins that we have lost ?
Only blood can satisfy the thirst of blood”
That’s where the rationality must sneak in
And we must put our reason ahead of our action
“But what to rationalize, when your loved ones are gone ?
When revenge rides the mind, it claims life of someone”

Then I realized , It is way beyond the specter of religion
It is merely the humane traits of anger, revenge and satisfaction
History is going to bear the deep wounds of this mayhem
It is not over and won’t be over for the generations to come

But, “Who started what” is petty against “When is it going to end?”
That is how, my country needs to wake up, in the August of 47.

If we can’t live without our history,
Then we need not live IN it either
Peace and humanity among the people and across the borders
That is how we can overcome the August of 47.

Peace.

The Day Has Come

O My Friend!

The day has come
When rationality is an unknown virtue
When the knowledge is experienced, just by few
When truth is lost in the shadows of lies
And the prejudiced-captive self, cries
Reasons no longer possess the conviction
Morals are vanishing, the nihilistic attrition
When the bleak light of hope is slowly diminishing
Fears and distress, is what we can see

So, I say, My Friend!

That the day has come
When, to save humanity, we must unite
To claim our SELF, exploit the will and might
Hold onto the light of hope, we must see
Beyond our fears and disparity, beyond just “ME”
To make it happen, we must be the change
In pursuit of truth, must surmount the pain
When we seek life, beyond the barriers of our prejudice
Then only living, My Friend, is worth it !!!

Peace.

P.S. – If you are not able to get the jest of writer’s thought, then no problem. All you need to do, to get this one is – Read something that is partly spiritual, partly philosophical, partly psychological and humanly. And spend some time to see the chaos around you blended with introspection.

Who Am I ?

Message: The writer does not intend to shake anybody’s beliefs and opinions. The sole reason for the creation of this piece is the human ability to think/reason and the mysteries surrounding the existence of GOD assumingly Generating/Observing/Destroying our lives. The writer just wants you to reason your outlook and search for the answer on your own.

Who am I ?

Talks and logics are of no help
What I need to explore …is my inner self
The Architect…The Demolisher of my life..is just me
The Regulator…The Caretaker…he cannot be
Arguments are created and it’s mere perceptions
Theism and agnosticism are only conceptions
It’s not the vanity, neither boasting the self
Belief in the deity is just a way to help
Help…For miseries….Somebody to address the blame
Help…For relief….Something to cut down the pain
Everything can be checked….Sin and Virtue
How it depends on the Almighty ?…Aintt got a clue
The Good and the Bad are nothing but internal facts
Why does he wait for reincarnation ?..To punish for the errant acts
Karma is required…to exercise control and tame the MAN
Animals needs to be disciplined.. even in human clan
Mind holds the key to heaven and hell
Religion is just a product…anybody can sell
There’s nothing beyond life..nothing was there
Just a VOID ….no painful tortures…no fancy fares
There’s no destination…just a road to tread
It’s simple…either you are alive or you are dead
Scriptures are mythological….Proven by the history
Hitler was reality, but The Almighty…..well still is a mystery

We created GOD or GOD created we
Matter of belief….Thou believe in him…I believe in Thee
It’s not about showing the path and offering the light
It’s just a plain question to yourself …. “WHO AM !?”

Peace

My Love!!!

My Love…

When I was 6
Had a crush on my Miss
The way… she spoke and she moved
Made me happy, got me drooled
I realized it was, just one sweet dream
When…In her marriage, I had my ice –cream

When I was 12
It came about again
Characters changed but crux was the same
I knew she is the one and it’s only her
When she talked to me and asked for an eraser
But good times seldom stay my friend…..
I realized when I had her “Rakhi” on my hand.

When I turned 18
Was high on adrenaline..hunting for my queen
And she appeared like an angel from the sky
Did a full profile check …for her Boyfriend and Bhai
She was in my practicals and we shared the bus seat even
Thought finally it’s the time and world became heaven
But that’s only how the fairy tale ends
She broke it on 14th…with…”We Are Just Friends”

Now, as I am 24
I realize everything… can’t ask for more
My love…I looked out for...did not like me
My love...Someone had for me….did not strike me
And like all failed lovers, only gyan I can give –
Times change and so do our life
Save for your potential kids and wait for your wife

Hakuna Matata

Change!!!

Change
When I was a kid, I wanted to be someone
Color the whole world and kill the criminals with a gun
Didn’t care about tomorrow, as today was the craze
But could not hold onto it, life was meant to change…

When I was young, there were many things to do
Riding on adrenaline, was living out of the blue
Revolutionizing the world around me, out on a goose chase
Was dumb enough to realize, life’s gonna change…

When I was a little older, it occurred to me
The purpose of living, the light of my sky was…She
Love bloomed in heart and soul…was one crazy blaze
When the marriage bell rang, I realized… time is bound to change…

When I had a kid, the feeling was over the top
It was tough, but I skipped the bars...to visit toys’ shop
Parenting was not easy, failure fright was one big faze
I saw him grow….and then… I saw him change…

When I grew old, I contemplated my life
The fallacies of fate and my struggle to survive
Looking down from the exit, it was one hell of a maze
It was just me…by my side, solely living the change…

Now, as I am going to die……
It’s time to leave… to say goodbye
Life was nothing but a see-saw
Knocking me down and taking me high
Getting a smile and making me cry
When people grew tough and things went strange
The only thing impervious… was THE CHANGE…

Amen.

Cocaine…

The flickering lights and the shabby room
The spinning head coz the music grooves
Things are getting slower or am I moving fast
Why don’t the earth cracks?…when I can hear the blast
Lazing there, I saw..I felt…. what I have never imagined
Trying to hold my senses, slowly moving through the transition
Was it the devil himself or something moved beside me
Blood rush… like volcano erupted inside me
Wooziness is fun and I could feel the trance
Where’s the damn roof ?...Am I talking to stars?
It was just a dash…. but I think the coke hit me
She murmured something…ahh!! that pretty face……why don’t she shut it
My hands are numb and my fingers are getting cold
I laughed for the past and the surprises future beholds
I cried for the love I missed and those I messed up
My heart hobbled…Damn you!!… how many times you wanna break up?
Thirst is dancing on my lips since the start of the night
I want to punch the wall…..hey you!!…..let’s have a fight!!
I sank into the deep dark waters and struggled for a gasp
It somehow broke the shackles and am out of the trap
Somebody turned up the volume and Cobain shouted
Orange, yellow with a little red is what I could make out
I forgave the snakes and forgot the stings
I loved the euphoria…. That I was in
I thought life to be crap and people to be profane
I forgave them all……coz I found my cocaine.

Peace

Love…

I killed her
Not because I hated her that much
I shot her
Just because, I could not forget that touch

I cried that night
Not because I regretted the deed
I cried that night
Just because, I knew it was the need

I remembered her love
Not because it was for me, or it was all mine
I remembered her love
Because, those moments were so fine

I smiled to her
Not because I lost the balance of mind
I smiled to her
Because, even her betrayal was so kind

I shot myself
Not because I was afraid to live life
I shot me in the heart
Because, that’s what I thought love is like.

Hakuna Matata

The Inside Journey

Days months and years passed by….
Was living under this illusion of complete GYAN
Read books and met people…….
Tried being a thinker and even a clown

Every time I thought I have got the answers
I m grown up and I understand
Life turned out again with different colors
Sometimes made me sick….sometimes it was grand

Was taught and disciplined and mind washed
But I wanted to break free…..
Free from the religion society and the caste
Was in search of mah inner self…..just me

Am I just a figment of mah own perception??
Or its just a body and a mind…..??
Taking up different roles .. ohh I so love d deceptions
Playing mah part…….also tried the other sides

Mah choices made me the person I am
Priority was the take of the time…
“To be or Not to Be”….was all that I can
Was taking mah own stand…so big a crime??

Emotions are good …..but does not work 24X7
Logics fail sometimes too…..it just happens
I tried to be many but all I can be is ONE
The Ultimate Truth is what I am seeking………..


Hakuna Matata

The Last Note

Curtains are down and the lights are dim
On to the window shadows blink
Saw my face and my emotions are visible
They won’t understand it….. nothing is feasible

Life outside is fast and ever growing….
I was left out…..didn’t feel like following
Is it just the glass that makes me stand apart
Or the morals that I pursued.. right from the start

All the memories flashed on the window against me
Did I struggle for this?? or was it what I am destined to be??
Friends family and all the people I m leaving
Were they really there or it was just a lie.. I m believing

Bidding goodbye to the things I loved and enjoyed
Stepping to my next goal… I can really see the void
With a sigh of relief…. opened the window
It was time…….time to… leave behind the shadows

It’s my decision and my choice to fly…….
Don’t wan’t you to feel bad…..don’t want you to cry………


Hakuna matata

Inside me

22 years in the making and things changed
My feelings ....my emotions.…felt strange
Gone are the sunny days….days of the carefree
Time has changed and so is the person… I used to be
My perspective....... about the world around me
Carved out this rage….. Inside Me

Cramming and beatings…is what I make of education
Scaring the children….building up the frustration
Competition and cutting other’s neck… was the motive
Couldn’t make up to the pace….tried as hard as it can be
But it changed the vision…how I feel n how I see
Bringing out ….the other side of Me

Caste, Community and religion is what I was taught
But could not justify still….why the hell… people fought
It’s plain biology…… got that in school….and that’s what I’ve found
We all are just homosapiens….some are dumb and some are sound
Then why this hullabaloo….the fighting spree
Don’t know….but …creates an uproar Inside Me


Democracy……I thought…….was freedom for people
But politics and power games…..making my country cripple
Vote banks and allegations is what they have made it
If there’s no nuisance….Well then create it
It’s simple…..why people can’t see
I can…..it’s the other side of Me


Bomb blasts and communal riots…..is what people want now
“Live and let live”…seems ….they cannot see it somehow
Humanity is redefined, because minds are getting nihilistic
“Let’s make world a better place”…seems sarcastic
But I would rise……. Stand against it all….
I can…coz…I’ve got what it takes….Inside Me……….

Hakuna matata

Gaurav the jerk!!!!!!

The straight guy without ne motives
I live like that only
Mah rules mah psyche….m in love with
Tasting life closely
Living just to have fun…m having a blast….
Started vid it…..carrying it to the last
Sannu nayi painda koi fark …ne more
Happpy being gaurav the jerk…right frm the core


Maa asked me to be sensitive n listen…..
Paa wanted me to b responsible…
Nah….its not that easy….
U cn tame a dogs tail…..tht seems possible…
Riding mah cycle...who gives a F fr merc ……
Happy being gaurav the jerk….


She said she would love me n do care
Bt I cudnt stay too long…. Just fr 1 fare…
Cycle sadi rukdi nahin kissi de vaste…
So…. « jaanu…..tu apne raste main apne raste…… »
Utar gayi uske chehre ki chamak……
Still….. happy being gaurav the jerk……..


Frnds said….”sudhar ja sale”….pehen le gulabi
Ban ja aadmi…..dhund le hamari bhabhi..
Life demands sacrifice…..deni hogi mujhe qurbani…
But wht can I do……bhagvan nhn banata ladki shayani….
Change the gals….change the world……nw thts mah work……
Its mah job…..job for gaurav the jerk



Hakuna matata

I RAN

I RAN
From the miseries and the pain
From the mud to come out clean
From Darkness to the light
From the helpless to the might

I RAN
From the people and the love
From the responsibility all above
From the tears and the emotions
From the care and the relations

I RAN
From the exhaustion to the solace
From the crowd to my space
From the heart to the mind
Until I went blind…..

I Stopped
When I found the answers and all
When I could feel the soul
When I was able to see
When I found me…………

Hakuna matata